Everything is going to be okay. I promise. We can get through this.
We can get through anything.It doesn’t feel like this any more.
We got by escaping a van with two super tall guys who were much taller and much stronger than us. We got by at the most awkward gig ever with a big bear dancing in front of us. We got by when all our friends decided to think they were better than us.
We’ve got by when all these guys come along and try and get inbetween us? Dino?! Puh-lease. He aint got nothing on us. Just like no one else has. No one can touch us.
You’re my best friend. Don’t ever forget that. I know i’ve taken you for granted recently but I need you, I really do. I may not be showing it right now or haven’t been but I’m so scared. I admitted it to you. I’m terrified. I love you Tails my girl, more than you’ll ever, ever, ever know. Can’t get by without you. So lets take a walk, lets cry together or be happy together. Lets get completely lost. Really lost and lets laugh about it ‘cause we know we’ll find our way home, whether it be in the near future or a year from now. As long as we do it together we can achieve anything.
I know i’m going to find my way home soon.
Sometimes I just want to scream out your name here. I’ve been suppressed, not being able to say your name for so long…
I need you. I miss you.
I love you.
I’m still in love with you. I’m sorry for that if it’s not what you want, if any of this is not what you want.
I don’t know what else to do as of now.
I keep seeing you in my future and… that is where it all started. I know, that sounds lame and I feel stupid for saying that. I didn’t even know you then, but I wanted to try to get to know you. I took the risk. And that was why, all the requests to meet you and go do things with you and I always read what you write. And besides that, the need to help you because I considered you my friend before anything else even though it definitely didn’t feel that way.
And then, we really got our emotions messed up when things didn’t turn out the way we wanted to. When we didn’t react to each other the way we expected the other to and even others who did not meet up to our expectations. Emotions muddled our thinking. Yes, I think we have a tendedncy to feel too much and not in a healthy way. But don’t let it anymore, I wish we could address the root of our problem.
I don’t know what else to do, I’m throwing myself at you. Sometimes I feel cheap for wearing my heart on my sleeve. Other times, I don’t know how else to express myself and that I am serious about something. I know I am throwing myself into danger, and in turn I may get hurt. But I really really would like to resolve this, I hope rationally too. I could get hurt, but I realize its all about sacrificing for what’s important to us.
I wish you won’t walk away from this, I wish you’d face this with me. This is what both of us have created, this is what we have to deal with. It’s hard but I want to face it, I want to resolve this. I’m not going to let my emotions overcome me anymore and walk away. I’d like a win-win situation for both of us. That is my hope so I’m gonna keep on trying.
